Odd Confessions

So, I realize that I haven't finished my blog about getting out of the pit. If you can recall, I gave a brief summary of the information in Beth Moore's book Get Out of that Pit, but I didn't finish explaining the entire process. I left you hanging when I described the types of pits and the ways you can get into a pit but didn't explain how to get out of the pit. Well, here's my first odd confession. I couldn't explain how to get out of the pit because I hadn't finished the book yet, and I hadn't finished the book yet because I was scared! Now, you may be wondering why I was scared, and here's the explanation for that. It had been a big step for me to admit that I was in a pit and suddenly I found myself afraid of being held responsible for knowing how to get out of the pit. You see, I knew that once I had read through how to partner with God on climbing out of the pit I had no excuses for starting that process. And my friends, I knew that it was going to be a difficult, dirty, commitment. I just wasn't sure that I was ready to step forward and do the thing. Of course the book sat and stared at me reminding me each day that God had provided the way out and I was forgoing it. So, of course I put the book away feeling that if it was at least out of sight, it would be a little more out of mind. A month passed and with a few more counseling sessions behind me, and the CA trip finally over with, I was ready to embrace the process. It still wasn't something I could rush into, so I simply got the book out and set it on the coffee table. There was no avoiding it there. And finally, after a few days, I picked it up and started on the last five chapters. At this point I only have two chapters left and I anticipate that I will finish them today or tomorrow. So, check back soon and I will summarize what I now know about getting out of the pit.

I have one more odd confession. At some point during my medical leave when I was at home, feeling pretty awful, and needing a distraction, I got hooked on Amish books. I know...odd! It wasn't something that I had planned or ever pegged myself for, but I found that a trip to the Amish country via a book was a brief escape from my seemingly complicated life situation. The only Amish books that I've ever read have been by Beverly Lewis, so I can only speak for those. I became completely engrossed with the characters and their complicated, simple life. Lewis has written a couple of really great Amish series, so if you ever find yourself longing for a really good Amish book I would recommend checking her out. I still think about some of the characters from her Abram's Daughters series. Fair warning, if you read a lot of Amish books right in a row you will suddenly find yourself saying "for sure and for certain", "jah", and "wonderful-gut"and feeling the urge to learn how to quilt! So, now, whenever I want to escape, I start reading an Amish book. I have to confess that although a year had passed since I felt the Amish calling, I picked up a new Amish book right before I went to CA. I haven't finished it yet, but as soon as I do, I plan to face life once more, figure out how to climb out of the pit and feed my intellectual side with Little Women.